LIFE AS A PIONEER (MATRI DAY 1)

Sooooo, today was the day i had to wake up so early to attend SCHOOL.
my nose and throat were irritating the shizz outta me then i woke up at like 5.30 and couldn't breathe cuz my nose was entire blocked. and i continue to try to sleep and etc. rushed outta house like mad and the thing about staying at such a high level, i was already rushing like mad, and the lifts are retarded don't ask me why. only one came to my level after quite some time..

and after getting in, it kept stopping otw down! like every 2 levels stop once, i was so pissed off inside already! like hurrry up, HULLO IF NOT I FART U ALL GET OUT! just kidding LOL

but yeah, met rene, julia, ryan and soon at je station and we wanted to cab to pioneer from cck cuz we thought we were late! but we see all the j2 peeps like all taking their time, so i was thinking sch starts at 7.45 and thank god it did cuz when we reach pioneer, we still had time to find our groups (yes, all 6 of us were separated) and make new friends!

i am in MG34 which is the last MG. MG stands for Matriculation Group. idk what's the meaning of it, but it's all very dry and on the surface kinda stuffs like subject combi etc. my group was alright except they weren't very high and just kinda quiet. and who plays the MRT game by simply just tapping so lightly on the shoulders?!! If they saw how C-LIGHT QUEENS played in church camp, they would finally get how the game is like. hope tomorrow will be way better..

I like the environment and i hope i will be able to cope with the h2 subs ESPECIALLY MATH!! cuz my amath foundation is shizz so i'm praying super hard that i will have the determination to practice and with the guidance of the teachers, i will do well!

today there were so many talks and we sat there till my butt ache, leg numb, back pain. and worse still, i totally sound weird and deep cuz of my sore throat and i couldn't stop coughing, like a noisy :(
i made friends in my group, they're all quite nice and stuffs. at least there was smth to talk about and all. hoping that orientation period will come soon cuz by then we'll be having the overnight camp with our classes!!! yayyyyy.

and also, i am starting to like pj more and more cuz of environment and did i mention that there's free wifi around the whole campus?!!!!!!!!!! SHIOKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK MAXIMUM HEHEHEHEHE

well, i guess that's all for today. so tried and boring. tomorrow will be college tour! hope it'll be fun!

CIAO

SCHOOL?! WHERE GOT TIME!

Text received at 7:13 - MOE: TEO JIAMIN, you are posted to PIONEER JC, SCIENCE (35S) under 2012 JAE. Pl report to JC/MI on 31 Jan 12 at 07:30am

So I have to report tmr at 7.30?!!!! Omg school, dreading to wake up soooooooooo early all over again like I've done so for the past 8 years! (cuz last time p1&3 was afternoon) 

SIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN! But quite excited cuz SY, RENE, JULIA, RYAN, SOON, JOLENE etc etc. are in the same school too! WEEWOOWEET! So it won't be as loner95 much. 

BUT I MAY appeal to cj tmr? Maybe I should give it a try but nonetheless, still quite okay with pj although my reaction was literally poker face when I saw the text. No emotion or whatsoever! I guess it was quite expected huh! I already chose my subject combi already. Taking h2 - math, chem, econs and h1 geog. 

And someone had to throw his little temper at me for idk what, like i didn't even do a shizz?! Like seriously? Me? Ok can. 

Anyway, today was a greaaaaaaaaaaat outing with the girls!! <3

Watched we not naughty and i didn't cry! yes i didn't! it was rather funny and all although some parts were quite boring. Well, had good catch up time and all, laughters too! Very good way to spend my last day of hols with the people i love. 

Well, we also went A&F!!!!!!!! and due to my chicken pox when it first opened, and MANY people went to take polaroids with them, i could only sit at home and get all envious. BUT TODAY.. I GOT MY CHANCE WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO SO HAWT MAXIMUM!!!!

Okay this photo made my day a whole lot better!
Oh and I forgot to mention that he was like, "oh you can lean on me, it's alright!" and i was like ah *bliss*! HEHEHEHEHEH and he smells so darn good. and also, when it was my turn, the cam went outta batt and the girl went to change it and he continued to hug me and at first he was like, "sorry." and i thought i couldn't take the pic anymore! But then he was like "oh you can stay here awhile longer" with a cute smile and he hugged me tighter WAAAAAAAAA TOO HOT OMG and i was looking at rene and julia so excitedly and thinking, SCOREEEEEEEEEEE! hehehe

okay

CIAO need to sleep early tonight, *SAD FACE X99999999999999*

REN RI

Today is the 7th day of the lunar chinese new year! How was everyone's cny so far??
This has been one of my best cny! All things went well and blackjack like MAD, yes MAD MAD MAD MAD. Lost and won too.

CNY spirit was definitely present on the first day, maybe it didn't felt like CNY during the eve but it went well. Next week there's gonna be another gambling session at my grandma's! OOPSIES.
can't get addicted. Well, life has been greaaaaaaaaaaat, there were different events that were in between cny period. from kwanyang's house, xuwei's house, lg, axis, etc etc!

BUT..... THE JAE/JPSAE POSTING RESULT WILL BE OUT TOMORROW 
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
need.to.breathe.

it's so freaking scary when the posting results will come by text. so it's like tmr morning when i wake up, it's either i'll be shocked or be like OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG HAHAHAHA and then cry lol much

but really, the thought itself is scary, when that unknown number texts you and your heart just stops for a moment before opening it and reading the damn content.
i hope it's not some advert that asked u to unsub it like, PLEASE GIMME A BREAK ALR, how many heart attacks must i get! well if u wanna know where i'm posted to you can always stalk my twitter :P or ask me personally!

well, there's nothing exciting except wait for the blog post tmr with my result i guess? btw new pic that i took in botanical gardens, with editing of course. my yeap my camera skills are getting better with every take okay? HEHE ENJOY

I called this picture Floating Feathers

but what a great pic i took of that solo duck so upclose!
CIAO

SOCIAL NETWORKING

Hey guys I'm bored so I shall self-promote my social networking sites for all to view and enjoy! :)

Firstly is my official blog which is what you're reading now :)

Next is one a frequent ALOT which is my twitter and you can follow me @Janellezzie

Next is one that I go to and be in my own world. I love that place. You can follow me on my Tumblog

and also my newest photography tumblog!

OKAY THAT'S ALL FOR NOW! SUPPORT ALL OF THEM YEAH?!!!!!!!!!!! :)


CIAO

I think I just murdered it. It's busted. WHY DID I DO THAT? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO ASK ME. I hate the fact that there are people out there who hasn't experienced what you had been through. It's about losing a friend mind you. Another "close" friend I would say but I doubt I am a "close" friend to that person too.

OKAY I RUINED IT. BLAME ME. FLAK INSECURITES.

I wanna be strong and be cuddled into one's arms and that person would hold me tight and make sure i'm alright before letting me venture off to something new. I wanna be that. But I feel so weak, all over. Every day.

It eats me up a little inside.

*insert relevant title here*

Font is kinda big today cuz my eye hurts a little...

This might bore some of you out so you guys may X off here before you start complaining why I blog about thing totally unrelated to you.

Well, afew days ago, on the bus ride home with Xueli, my shepherd, and we talked about how learning from your peers starts by role-modelling. I mean, now I've rose to become a shepherd, I really need to be mindful of what I say and do. Cmon you all know actions speak louder than words right?

And actually I haven't changed. I still swear like nobody's bz like ****you and you mofo all these. And I guess if I do that, I won't be setting a good example to my sheeps..

Before I start on that lemme ask. Why do you do stuffs like what you do today or now. What made you changed - the way you talk, the actions you do, the way you eat your burger or whatsoever. I mean, it's all by looking at how someone behaves. Like you wanna do that to, or that movement really attracted you so you wanna "copy" them. Copying is nothing bad yknow except you overdo it and it becomes irritating..

THAT'S BESIDE THE POINT YAW.

So yeah, we're all organisms that are easily influenced by the society. Like why do you smoke? Or why you wanna put a tattoo? Or why you wanna take an iPhone? Why you wanna buy a dslr? Why you wanna dress up in this particular way too? Why do you talk like this?

And so yeah, back to the sheeps thing. I wanna be a good influence to them, and since influence makes a huge impact on people's lives, why not do it right?
That's why I think I should really stop swearing. I mean, it really eats abit of my conscience when I say the F word. LOL some might say, "waaa damn lame sia, still say F word. No balls say fuck uh"
Like seriously, I've made a decision to accept Christ in my life and this is the path I wanna go. To serve Him to my fullest and just be there if I am being called and also be so super blessed by Him.
Like my life really changed. I am so darn blessed I can't even stop to count them, and I never count because it's really overwhelming.

PS/ I really dislike it when people call me "Holy" if I start posting this kinda stuffs or just being a "christian-ish" on twitter, which I rarely do now. CMON, I'M JUST ME LAAAAAAA BRUHS.

And I know it myself that someone out there saved me like 2000 plus plus years ago and he doesn't even know me then till I was born born. Now that, is love. True love, and we are able to find salvation in Him.
So you see, I've came to this point of realization that once I've made a huge decision, I can never run away no matter how far it may be or to the extent of going over to another country, because wherever I may go, God is still God and He is my God. One and only.

And truth to be told, I haven't start any official shepherding, except talking to them and finding out more about their lives especially it's the hols now and everyone is just so occupied and even I am pretty busy myself too... *guilt ridden*

But really, peer-shepherding ain't easy at all sometimes. I mean, you know someone for 4 years and suddenly she becomes your mentor? I wonder if there are thoughts like, "Why should I listen to you?" I mean like you know someone for 4 years and she may seem really clumsy or oblivious to surroundings or being such a badass, suddenly has to teach you stuffs related to the Bible?

WHAT IN THE PORKWORLD IS BACONS?!

So yeah, I won't fail anyone and continue to gain some more knowledge about the word! And this is the last time I'll swear, because accepting Christ was the...

*oops* I think I rotted a little more inside.

And the thing is why I turned back to saying the F word, it's because I don't wanna sound vulnerable to others. I wanna be strong too okay? And in the past I didn't know how I could be strong like through actions so I had to use it, to make sure I had a stand, a say, and not get bullied or teased or to make myself like more ....... Ugh you know the word luh, insert it yourself.

It's like you can't help but think about what others' might be thinking about you. Like, "why she doesn't swear sia," or "weakling"

I am not going to allow myself to be categorized in any of those because I know I never wanna turn back again. Everyday is a new day for me to change for the better and be a true blue Woman of God. I just wanna be wholeheartedly faithful and yeah, be a badass sometimes.

LIKE CMON, WHAT'S LIFE WITHOUT SOME BADASS BITCHY SHIZZ HEHEHEHEHEEHHEHEHEH

Okay so the point is, I am going to start to role-model, hopefully through that my 2 sheeps are able to mature with me and also I am able to learn from them too! Life's really unexpected yknow? ;)
But gimme some time to sort out my thinkings AGAIN cuz I'm a very indecisive person and my thoughts run wild at home just like sweetiepie Niall!

And this

And I believe, that if my heart is set for something I've got to try to achieve it!

Okay I guess that's all bout that.

ANYWAY.................

I just reached home like prolly 2 hours ago and the first newsfeed I saw on my fb was..

LIKE WHUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?! That's just 3 days before my sexy seventeenth!!!!!!!!!!!! I WAS LITERALLY LIKE OMG PLEASE COME PLEASE COME AND IT'LL PROLLY BE ONE OF THE BEST GIFT EVER FOR A SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD GIRL. I MEAN AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I love 1D. I swear (other than Justin Bieber, Boys Like Girls, etc.) No other bands made me happy like solely the thought of them makes me happy, really. And I hate to admit it here but I always imagine meeting them and what to say etc. OMGGGGGGGGG I CAN DIE HAPPY IF THEY COME HA HA.

I hope they are really coming like really, cuz I have already thought of the words I wanna put on the banner, and what to wear - obviously the official Singapore's 1D fan tee! And like just be crazy over them like a normal fangirl. *sigh* (happy sigh from all the spazzing)

And I absolutely love spazzing with Julia over 1D, like we sing and she tells me the funny stuffs they did and I would mention her in tweets whenever I see a funny picture.

Best is, if they have a meet and greet and HOPEFULLY THEY CAN GIVE ME HUGS, AND POLAROIDS AND WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I might faint on the spot!

So dear god, I hope that something special will happen on this seventeenth birthday of mine be it anything cuz I will still love you and love whoever that is going to make me happy. WAHAHAHAHA

So I'm ending off this horribly long post with

I mean, who gets tired of them.
Okay CIAO.

LOL

Wired theories

Does it really happen? When you give up that one fish and continue searching through colonies and this is what you get?

Pardon handwriting. I need lines to write straight damn it.

find the right boiboi/gurlgurl for yourself ok

Bee hives

not a very wordy post.
was at my aunt's place making bee hives, some cny goodies which taste damn good. crispy and sweet.
well, not in the best of mood now and also, i don't have the cny spirit damn it.
kinda looking forward to tuesday hmmmmmm.
CIAO.